Soooo good

This is finally a new day. The sun is shinning.

Highlights of what happened.

-Elyse and I can do youth ministry together and we are both still happy when we see each other
-My parents finally got a divorce. hurts a lil.

-I am an intravert at heart and I am allowing myself to live like that.

-Our car is falling apart

-we have a new apartment that is all new and cheap and has 79 acers of God's glory and its in Marshall, MI

-we have to pay for everything and we have no more savings.

-My former youthpastor found my site and saw some of the riskay things I think. (Hi Matt)

-I am finally living what is important to me

And finally the big new one.




Corporate worship sucks the life out of an experience with God and boxes it into one avenue. Elyse and I are going to branch out and we have found new ways to worship God that actually does all of those things worship was supposed to do and be. Nothing really new just totally "emerging church"
I might be my churches youth pastor in a year too. keep ya updated.

Josiah I cant wait till you come back. You are a true friend and you are seriously missed.

Livin it up

Ben

Panic! at the watchtower

What says whether or not life is a waste? What exactly do you have to do to "waste" life? How do you know you are not already doing it? 

I am stuck in that three ring circus. I feel as though I am weightless being tossed around by those questions. I am spinning to fast and I feel like I am going to puke up my soul. Time is the hardest measure to live up to. It expects so so much and yet the only way we know it exists are stupid clocks (some would argue the sun, cant disagree). What are we to have done? What are we not to be doing? Who fuckin says??? I cant handle that pressure any more or I will tear into three. Why should I care? What is even the big deal? Where can you compare accomplishment to accomplishment, ability to ability, time wasted to time well spent? Who does that? 

Why wont it leave me alone?