Well, this is blog #2 since the death of God. The theistic God anyway (just to ease some peoples troubled minds). I am doing really good. I have learned how not to freak out and start a belief system on nothing or just hunches. I would tell people, well now I am this or that and scare the bejesus out of them, only to find I did not really think that stuff I said. I think I have a square one now though and I proudly say that I do believe in God. I think he exists simply because I have the capability to think so. I also still cant get my head around the alternitive of atheism or evolution.
I do want to say I have no idea what this God is or what it does. I dont know how one is supposed to know or if one could ever know. All I have ever heard are dumb arguments and even the good ones are just pills to make me feel better.
I started reading into hinduism ( I recommend it to anyone who wants to learn about God and spirituality) and as I was eating it up I realized I did not really care about the persona of God. I dont know if I want to know who he is or what it does or anything like that right now. Spirituality is kinda low on my list of things to explore. Like most at my age I am finding myself out first.
I am actually going into psychology more then ever now. I have always believed in the power of the human psyche but now I think it contains more answers then anything else I am searching for.
I also want to let you in that I am still saying my Jesus phrases subconciously and I am still very interested in the starving in Africa and the whole idea of making the world better and stuff. Turns out I did not need a God to be a good person. Those of you who are still being christians, I respect you and your beliefs. I dont think that everybody is going to feel the way I do about God being a coping mechanism. I do want you to check yourselves though. Thats only cause I love ya.
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