One of those fights

Yeah for Thursday. I am actually glad its thursday considering the circumstances. I have decided that Jesus was right and tomorrow will worry about itself and thursday will be thursday and I will be happy because its thursday. Yesterday, being wednesday I was going to go get my woman some tie len all. I found my car would not start for no apparent reason. Finally after a jump, I just decided to come back inside and worry about today, Thursday. I have a band practice in which i am meeting some of the kids I work with for the first time. If my car wont start I cant be there and considering the circumstances my life would be ruined (that's how I felt on Wednesday). I began thinking about the fact i have a car and how lucky I am to begin with. That helped for about 3 minutes and then I started feeling bad for me again. As I was falling asleep I thought what does God want in this whole thing? Is this a life long lesson he is trying to teach me? disgusted and bitter at those words I just went to sleep. 

And here I was. Thursday. I was happy about today. I havent really thought about tomorrow yet. I woke up and immediately  went out to start the car. nothing. Got another jump and embarked on a mission to fix this car. I got into one of those fights with the lady where you go, 

ok i am going

oh but i wanna go

ok i will wait

no just go

Then I get a call saying she is upset. I personally blame that on my insensitive masculinity and personal manipulation issues. thats another entry though. I do have to brag. I did all the work. It was a dead battery and auto zone was swamped so they said here are the tools take your battery out and give it to us. So I did it. then they said your battery will blow up our store (no stretch that is a quote) if we charge it so here is a different one. put it in there. So i did it. I figure now I am a man. other then the fact that I cant make my wife happy at the moment, I believe i am a man.

So that is thursday so far. Its a good day somehow. I believe it is full of purpose and full of something that I cant see. something is filling up this room and fills my window of perception. Its really spiritual and its only thursday.